Today is Our Valentine's Day

One night while catching myself settling for a relationship I didn't want I stopped it. I made a decision that I wanted and deserved better. I prayed about it, everything I wanted, needed and deserved. I also promised to just let it go, stop looking and be happy on my own. It didn't last very long. I found Tristan.

He was everything I didn't think I could have. He was ambitious, with dreams and likes aside from video games and alcohol. He wasn't just trying to get in to my pants, and he had a big heart. I knew in the beginning that he could be the one.

The day we were supposed to hang out was a scorcher. I was terrified to go, terrified my car would break down in the heat. A friend of mine told me that if I didn't go I might regret it for the rest of my life and I knew in that instant she was right. I made up my mind to go. I was terrified at first but as the hours passed I knew in my heart I would be sad to see him go, that I couldn't live without him and that he was the cork to fill the hole in my heart. ( I still feel that way now )

He would be telling me stories about his family, his nieces and nephews, his parents and my heart would be aching and yearning for more, to not be in the friend zone. He was a classy guy, a respectable guy. He had a dog. He had a good family, a big family. He still has all those, in fact the family is just getting bigger and better. His family is love, everything I ever wanted in a family, in my family. And now we're getting married, and if they'll truly let me in to their hearts they'll be my family too.

Not even going to lie, Tristan loves me unconditionally, flaws and all. How the hell did I ever get so lucky? Or deserve it. I can't believe where life has taken us so far. I can't wait to see where it has planned for us to go. I do know that I realized last year that I can't live another moment without him, without him knowing how much I love him. I know I can't wait for our lives to start as a married couple.

We hit patches, skids of ice, but we have each other in the end. I feel better through the hard times knowing that I have him by my side and I'm eternally grateful to have his love.

Our Fourth Date, Ever!

Recently, my maid of honor, Colleen, offered to babysit before she went back to school. When I say offer, I mean I didn't even have to ask. This is all crazy to me. Then it got me thinking, and even crazier is that in the two and a half years that Tristan and I have been dating we've only been on three dates. Three!

The first date was... the first date. We went to dinner and a movie. I laughed my butt off, had the time of my life and knew instantly that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.

Our second date was our first Valentine's Day. I don't remember exactly what we did, but I know that Tristan and I ended up having sparkling cider on a cliff over looking the city with caramel apples.

Our third date was our two year anniversary. We went to the Jasmine and Clay Krazy. It was really fun and Tristan and I made bowls for each other. He even Almost finished mine today.

Today, we went to the Jasmine and then got really Really confused as to what to do next. We walked around the mall trying to think of possibilities but couldn't come up with any, so after an hour or two of second guessing ourselves we just decided to go to Clay Krazy. I painted Raggedy Ann and purchased Raggedy Andy so I could paint him too. I can't wait to finish, I think they're part of Olivia's gifts and I might get her a Raggedy Ann or Andy doll. Her first birthday is coming up quick!

All in all, we obviously have planning to do and have forgotten what it's like to live for us or even spend quality time with each other. This is Really depressing to me so I look forward to recognizing and making more time for each other.

 Thank you Aunty Colleen!!!

I'm Engaged!

I love Tristan Daniel Haynes more than anything in the world! I couldn't wait any longer so I asked him. This year has been Horrible, and I want the next year to be better, I want my next year to have him in it. I want every year to have him in it and I want to officially start our life together as soon as possible!

July 29th, 2012! Our Anniversary is July 29, 2009 and I'd like to keep it on that day so we have one anniversary, and that's our day.

I'll keep you posted on how things are going. But best said, "...because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible"

November

 The first and foremost unforgettable thing about November, Thanksgiving. 

This year we tried new recipes, and made 3 pies;

apple, praline sweet potato and pumpkin. 

 I hosted a Shutterfly party and made some more delicious things, like chocolate cranberry orange glaze scones and a hot buttered yum cider.

I started doing reviews for my friend, the first being organic baby food.

She likes to bang down the door while daddy is sleeping to make sure he's still there.

Olivia started standing on her own, and often.

She likes to feed herself, and only then will she really eat.

She likes to feed her puppy, and currently gets away with it.

This is her at the mall, playing like a big girl.

 

 

 Logan got to try a peppermint cake pop, and mommy got new wedges.

 I finished an angel representing my grandma Betty, 

and sent it to my grandma Micheline to watch over her.

 Uncle Josh had his 24th birthday!

 

  

We went to Sears and had Tons of pictures taken, and they actually turned out pretty good. :)

Yo Gabba Gabba, Yo!

I will begin with saying that I’ve maybe watched Yo Gabba Gabba twice, ever. The idea of it, or any other tv show out there for my kids to watch, frightens me in comparison to what we grew up with. I will also say, to induce the hype me and my son watched a couple episodes before the big concert. He had no real idea what a concert was, but he was excited. 

Yo Gabba Gabba, at the Paramount, Live! I wasn’t sure what to expect, this was my first kids concert. We arrived with just enough time to spare to see that we might have to pay $20 for parking, might being we drove around the block and found parking for $10. We were greeted by other parents waiting in line to pay for their slot, and then all ran in a dash toting our kids so we didn’t miss the opening. 

First off, I want to say that I’ve never been to the Paramount either. It was beautiful, classic, sophisticated. The youngster and I went to the bathroom so we had no urgencies during the concert. Once seated we scoped our surroundings before the lights dimmed, once again, amazing! But let’s not talk about the Paramount. 

DJ Lance Rock comes on to the big screen, wishing he could join us… but wait! Out he pops from a little door, center stage, and the fun begins! It’s loud, it’s exciting, and it captivates everyone from the beginning.

Even my Olivia. She’s 9 months old.

He brings out all of his amazing friends, because they of course want to play too! You’re asked to stand up and join in the singing and dancing, it was quite engaging and looking around, I wasn’t the only parent doing it, because who doesn’t love feeling like a kid again?!

Just as you’re getting in to it, they pause for intermission. Time to take the kiddos potty, check out the souvenirs or grab a bite to eat. They even serve adult beverages!

Logan decides he wants to be a big boy and check out his own seat. By this time he’s having a blast and begging me to let him go up on stage. “Can we go up there yet? Can we go up there yet? Can we go up there yet?” 

Yay!!!

By now, I’m hooked, then they go and bring out all this dancing food singing about a party in your tummy. “There’s a party in my tummy, there’s a party in my tummy!” The vegetables want to take part, heck, even I want to take part. (This song has been stuck in my head since, we’ve been having a lot of parties at home) Seeing as how I’ve never seen Yo Gabba Gabba, I thought this was pretty dang cute, and so were a lot of the other messages and songs.

They bring out the man with the gift of the gab and he starts inviting all the little ones up, we thought the reality of this for Our little one was a terrible idea, we pictured a tired 3yr old not wanting to come down. The other kids did really great and got to help this rapper rap up a storm.

Logan had a lot of fun riding on daddy’s shoulder’s, dancing and singing. It was a lot of fun to them really get in to all the entertainment.

On several fun occasions things shot out at the audience, this time being leaves to celebrate fall!

I looked over, and the old man was even smiling. I thought for sure by now he’d be sneaking out to the bathroom.

Snow, snow was amazing. It looked like real snow, it was ahhhmazing. 

Everyone reached out to touch, almost as if they all expected it to be cold.

More dancing, more singing, more fun. 

I was surprised to feel the disappointment when they sang their “Good Bye” song. I didn’t want it to end, we were having so much fun.  To be honest, with two kids and a crazy busy family life it’s hard to get out for date night, it’s hard to expect to have any time together as a couple. This time together was okay by me. I had such a blast.