a still moment

In grieving there are moments where I feel like I slammed in to a brick wall and there's no where to go or anything else to do but face the pain, the loss. Right now I am having one of those in your face moments, months later and probably for the rest of my life. I miss my grandma. I miss her comfort, her voice, her laugh, her love. I want so badly to talk to her right now, to ask and tell her so many things. l feel like my heart is breaking all over again.